Where do I begin? Where do I start? Gosh, so many things have happened in just this past month. Well I guess I'll just dive in.
So this is my last few days in my college, like ever. I've had a 3.78 or higher GPA through out all these 10 months of the massage program I'm part of. I've learned so much and tomorrow I have a small ceremony where all of us (my other classmates) receive pins as a way to show that we're done and have accomplished so much. I will be taking my state test to become an actual CMT on the 31st. So I hope you can send a little positive energy my way.
I'm speechless to think that I have come this far. In high school I was more worried about money and how to actually live in this world to stop and think; "You Have A Future... You Have Dreams." It may seem cliche and said over and over again on those determination posters, but it finally has actually seeped in me some how. I have dreams of possibly furthering working in Sport Massage, those who had surgery, or teens. I like the thought of working with teens because it's such an awkward stage in life.... No, I'm not a pervert. Besides that point (on how massage is perceived as sexual because of history... Curse You And Your 'Happy Ending') I think it would help generations of teens who need a comforting touch, that could do so much good. I may use a really off tangent example: (I apologize in advance)
My first love you can say, I wanted too just comfort him through all the stress he was going through. From his parents, his relationships he had gone through, and just to be there for him when all else failed... I guess you can say this is also a confession too. I never did handle it well, to tell him my feelings correctly (I mean who did when you're 15-16?). I blush violently every time how I handled it. Gosh, Busch Gardens was hell for me. Another time I remembered I had hand sewn his name into some crappy blue scrap fabric and gave it too him. My word. >w< I'm such a dope. I find it funny though, that was possibly almost 4 to 5 years ago. Besides that, I wish that my future self could have helped him. Wheres the Tardis when you need it?
Going on, I apologize again. I could write a paragraph... Nah, more like a novel about things I wish I could say to him. But I think I would implode first before he knew. Hahahaha.. Ha. But YEY for future thinking. Right? Right?......
I TOLD YOU THIS WAS GONNA BE LONG
. I've been a busy bee with studying and staying up till 2 am doing stuff.... Like watching K-Drama and reading books.
Yup, I really fall for that kinda stuff.
(Procrastination for the WIN)
But since I've written so much already and quite possibly lost you half way through the first paragraph, thanks for reading my little slice of life.
I'll be sure to, I guess update you if I pass my state exam. Have good lives until then my friends.